Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. Alprazolam 0.5 mg is too mild a doze. You can go without it for sure. You told you are without alprazolam for more than two weeks and I don;t think you were totally disoriented. Nothing happened. You just worrying everyday and nothing happened at all. This should enter your mind as a truth. For a person like you, who has many problems, anxiety is part of life. But treatment for anxiety is not medicine, at least for you. If that is the case, you cannot stop the medicine throughout your life. But in your case, you are doing it. I mean it. Then the medicine 0.5 mg is just playing the role of placebo. Fine. Now you are already experienced without alprazolam, why don t you continue without that medicine. You have enough experience on that matter. For pain management, you can use methods like meditation, relaxation, psychotherapy and music therapy. These steps also help you with anxiety too. Please do not worry. I am sure you will be able to cop with the situation, because you already did, are doing for more than two weeks. Reassure yourself, be self motivated and take the step. Nothing will ever happen, all those are in your mind. Nothing is or will be reality. If you still need my assistance in this regard, please use this link. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Please remember to describe the whole problem with full detail. Hope this answers your query. Please feel free to post follow up queries. Available for further clarifications. Good luck. Take care.