Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. This sort of complaints are very general. Once you get yourself accustomed with the situation, the problem goes away. never associate this problem with anxiety and shy away. Get into that. Specific phobias are always treated with involvement in that phobic area. Do indulge in such activities and ignore the nervousness. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.