Hi, I read your query and do understand the distress you might be feeling. You seem to be suffering from premature ejaculation. You should seek psychiatric consultation for your problem. Had I been your psychiatrist, I would have offered you treatment with both medications as well as behavior therapy. The medications can include a course of SSRIs like paroxetine taken daily or dapoxetine taken on SOS basis. The behavior therapy sessions will include learning relaxation exercises, and methods to delay ejaculation like distraction and squeeze technique. Hope this information was helpful. Best wishes.