Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your description. I suggest you not to worry much. You have obsessive thoughts, which is normal for obsessive personality. You have to learn to ignore such thoughts. Ignore them and they vanish in due course. If you start fearing obsessive thoughts, they come back and haunt you again and again. let the thoughts come and go. Don t mind. They will not harm you unless you fear them. You might need psychotherapy and other cognitive behavioral therapies. I can help you through telephone. Please do contact me through customer care of www.healthcaremagic.com for a telephonic consultation session. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.