I have suffer so much abuse in the past, but I only start feeling very weird little by little symptoms 1o years or so after, I sometimes can t sleep, because I have bed dreams, I cry a lot thinking I be possibly be attacked by the same way again, I am fine sometimes, it s hard for me to communicate with people I don t know, and right now I am just taking chance, even though I do have a psychiatric I just feel out of reality, right now I am so afraid of being who I am.I am unemployed, I cannot afford it anything, sorry this is one more thing that are disturbing me right now am I speaking with real doctors, I am concerning also and wish I didn t said anything,