Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. You are very detailed. From the look and feel of your condition, it is almost clear that You have an anxiety disorder which is called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Don t go by the used words. This condition arises after some body goes through intense stress. Throughout the stress period, our body produces some hormones which neutralizes stress factors. But when the stress condition stops, the hormones takes its toll. Means, once the body get used to these hormones, it cannot go without them. This condition needs practice. Training to overcome addiction. Just like substance abuse. It is possible with the help of relaxation, psychotherapy and other such techniques, without the help of medication. You can post a direct question to me in this website. Include every detail as much as you can. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques to control your condition. I am sure that the techniques should be a success. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.