Hi, I can understand your distress with your symptoms. From what you have mentioned, you seem to be suffering from a depressive episode. You are also having suicidal thoughts, which implies that your depression is quite severe. I suggest that you seek a psychiatric consultation without any further delay. You need to start treatment immediately. Treatment with anti-depressants like venlafaxine or sertraline would be helpful. In addition, you should also talk to someone close regarding your symptoms. Letting out your feelings and emotions will help you feel better. Regarding issues with your husband, you can sit down and talk to him. You can also opt for marital counseling which will help you adapt to each other in a better way. Hope, this information was helpful. Best wishes for speedy recovery.