Hello sir and thank you for posting your query here and I m definitely going to help you out.. Welcome to HCM... I being a surgeon, we encounter so many such cases day in and day out and believe me it s a common problem almost every one in four adult male have... I read your question completely and have understood it well enough.. Will analyze the following things, please note.. 1. You say you pass semen kind along with urination!? Well, it does happen. But it s pathological. It s called Retrograde Ejaculation. And, tell me do you have this semen like thing coming out all the time or only when you have sex or masturbate!? If, you get this only after you ejaculate then definitely there s a possibility.. Please do this, to confirm. Don t listen to your doctor or me, but get these tests done. And it will tell us the exact thing. A. Urine Routine and Microscopy To look for motile spermatazoa.. B. Urine culture, to see if there s infection.. 2. And all the remaining things that you mention are basically related to your mental health. Do these things and it will help you.. A. Be positive that there s absolutely no problem with you. Mentally you have to be strong. B. Masturbation and sex will give you good health and there s a myth going on that it will weaken body. Don t believe that. C. To gain weight, eat good amount of protein. Non veg food, protein powder, milk, eggs, fruits etc. D. Most importantly, be happy. Happiness is wealth. And health. Hope I ve cleared your doubts, in case you need any further help, please let me know. Take care and God bless..