what does it mean when you have persistant thoughts, ideas that people, the system have ruined your life? ruined my hopes, my dreams and oppurtunities on purpous....because this is what i think at times. when i think about how i was abused, traumatised, victimized, bullied growing up at the hands of others around me...then because of all this i got mental health problems.... then i went off the rails then and committed a crime got in with the wrong crowd...then the system locked me up, put me through the psychiatric system and the jail system..messing my life up , giving me unwanted labels a crim record i never wanted...which will in turn in the present effect me trying to achieve my goals aspirations...employment oppurtunities..emmigration oppurtunities ( because that is my number 1 ambition, to move away from the uk)~ and originally all this wasnt my fault, i was a product of my environment.. so can anyone understand that at the age of 30 now i feel people, society ,the system,or whatever has ruined my life on purpous? i have bpd to,i feel theyve brandished me now im ruined