Sir, i m 23 years old and from past 2-3 years i am being troubled by my thoughts. They are out of control of my mind at many times. I fear for my family every time . I dont know how can i tell you but let me try: If i am doing any work and some thoughts like fictitious problem (which has no meaning) regarding my family comes to my mind then i repeat the work which i was doing...be it opening the fridge or climbing the stairs or writing in a page. I tear away a number of pages while doing work just because of this problem. This may be anything from putting a glass down to opening or closing a gate or opening my tv. 3-4 years ago in there were some arguments with someone and there was a fight but even after 4 years if his thoughts come to then if i am writing something i tear that page and write it again. Sir, i want to tell you that approx 3 years ago for some months i was indulged in smoking and drinking too but i quit after some months totally and from past 3 years i am not doing any kind of such activity but i have developed this fear problem. I am not relaxed at any time even at the time of masturbation i am in continuous resistance from my mind and it is my mindset that just after ejaculation i have to think good and if just after ejaculation i have bad thoughts then again i try to masturbate and if i cant then i leave it for another time to do it correctly. actually just after doing a work my mind wonders to think something fearful or horrorful so that i have to do the work again. I also want to tell you that after quitting alcohol and cigarettes i started a fascination towards masturbation and a fantasy for other s aunts etc. It was a bad thing though but i think this also may be one of the cause for my problems. Some times i am really frustrated with this world and just want to leave it as people are just going after money and leisure and the same time it is fearful also to leave everything. Sir, please help me out currently i am studying and have to do much study to achieve. Please help me out.I want you to help me whether it is medicine or exercise or whatever but currently i want to study and live like a normal person.