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We understand your concerns

I went through your details. The first thing you should sincerely do is "not to worry about your depression". Depression comes and goes. You should be able to distinguish between disappointment and depression. Disappointment also brings on symptoms identical to depression but they are short lived. When you are under deep disappointment, you could score 100% in that questionnaire. That does not mean you have depressive disorder.

You enjoy life, exercise, be happy, cultivate hobbies, change your lifestyle according to present, don't worry about depression and take medicines as advised. Within a span of 6 months you will realize, you don't need medicine. If you worry, it becomes obsession and leaving medicines may create anxiety due to that obsessive thinking.

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Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.
Good luck.

Thank you for your mail.In your case it seems as if the root cause of your anxiety and depression lies in your inability to accept the natural course of life.The medicine suggested by your doctor will help you to decrease your anxiety and depression but little change in your thinking will help you a lot.
If I am your treating doctor I would suggest you to try to live in your present ,dont compare yourself with others even with yourself (what you had been few years back).Indulge in those activites which are considered difficult for your age group such as learning languages,design fashion wear,playing games etc as per your choice.It will give you a feel of adventure and add purpose to live life fully.You will then definately feel better and beautiful .