Dear Welcome to HCM We understan your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. You have no problem at all. You are passing through a periodd called adolescence. During this period such mood and feelings are common. You are identifying yourself. You want answer to so many questions about your gender, role in society, family, friendship, career, future etc. You are unble to find an answer because you have very limited experience, you are not mature mentally. Therefore the confusion. Confused mind loves inactivity. That is what you are feeling now. You have to cultivate a habit of cheerfullness andd joyfullness now so as to keep intact throughout your life period. Behavioral pattern mastered in this age period is your behavioral pattern throughout. For psychological counseling and psychotherapy visit http://psychocure.webs.com/ Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.