Question: Hi I'm a 25 year old female that has struggled with adderall addiction and have been to rehab and immediately relapsed what should I do

I don't know what kind of rehab would be the best for me. I have been to a psychologist and was referred to a psychiatrist for ADHD and anxiety and prescribed both the adderall and Xanax. Honestly, I wish I had never gone bc I am so addicted to these meds and have ruined my life. My husband knowing my addiction and now goes to several doctors and prescribed the highest prescription amounts possible by walk in family doctors in less than a 5 min appointment and is able to force me do be his sex slave for the amount I need to be able to function. I know that the doctors providing him these crazy addictive drugs so easily does not mean all doctors are bad, but I am very worried to go to any mental health doctor or facility after my experiences. I had a very normal happy life and did not have any kind of disorder I fear they will want to start medicating me for and do not think that my addiction to these drugs are a disease but simply an addiction to addictive medication. The last rehab I went to kept me on the adderall and Xanax and weened me down to the prescribed amount. Should I try to get out of town and detox myself and just start over or do u have any suggestions