Question: In your opinion, how long do you think it will be before XXXXXXX responds to my loving emails? XXXXXXX went to his store tonight but did not go in. He saw XXXXXXX looking at the window with his back to a customer starring at the wall unaware of the customer, He was disheveled with his hair wild and uncombed like a bum.My daughter believes I need to continue to send him emails periodically like you do and tell him how much I love him as does my son...I am in a lot of pain so it is hard for me to do anything and I am not motivated to do so.. i have been crying a lot again because I miss him so much

Rabbi XXXXXXX told me to be careful when we want something so bad ahat we try to force God's hand about something that is truly not to be.Then he said God can do anything and he would pray for his healing. Was he saying it isn't to be,? Why do u think it's going to.be months now? I'm scared he will never respond and doesn't care anymore. Why do u say if his clinical situation improves. Don't u think.it will?

I have been emailing XXXXXXX on and off since the end of October to no avail..It is so discouraging as he seems to be getting more wild and worse yet he let my loving emails go through no problem after blocking them in December. I suppose you have seen this happen before that is why you know that my emails could have some positive effect? My son's night vision is beginning to come to pass..first his computer was fried, then we left here without XXXXXXX and began to minister to the Jews..the last thing is that we came back to Michael's house again and he got in with XXXXXXX shouting at him before the black bird of economic collapse and the pale bird of pestilence got us..they chased the three of us until we got away metaphorically to Israel..in my latest email that I will send XXXXXXX I will tell him how when I met him I sensed that God had brought us together and that only He would have known I could love a funny little Jewish man who loved Jesus XXXXXXX always believed that I hear from God and knows that what I see happens...its not a psychic thing its a God thing. He told me he couldn't believe that he could love anyone more than Jeannie until he met me and that he was deeply in love with me. He tried to kiss me twice. I also saw us under the canopy in a Jewish wedding ceremony in Cyprus which makes no sense at all since we are no longer together...the dream he had a year ago was that I came to him all dressed up in white and light and put my head on his shoulder and told him I loved him...that was HIS dream not mine..so I am going to tell him all of that and ask why those things happened since he is no longer there and I love him so very very much and miss him and pray that he comes back every day...somewhere under all the craziness and meshuggah behavior that love has still got to be there right? Even if he is talking to the wall in his store? He cannot seem to deal with working at that store..it sets him back and causes so much stress he can barely function..how is he going to get better if he has to be under such stress..?

You said the emails will make him realize my presence..does that mean he will forget me if I don't email him? Or did you mean that he would remember that he is still in love with me or loves me?

For u think it's his illness that is preventing him from responding to me or his fear of the court order?

Thank you Dr Bishnoi. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through and I have gone through a lot..because of the abuse in childhood and the abusive men I have been with, it is hard for me to believe that a sweet man like XXXXXXX is really a sweet man and not like my brothers, father and even mother and two husbands all of whom rejected and abandoned me..to have such a sweet man like Mikey suddenly disappear and leave has tapped into my most primal fears some of which I cannot even consciously remember as the abuse started in infancy so it is very gut wrenching and primal..that is the main reason I went into psychiatric social work and started working towards my Master's in Counseling from which I have taken an almost year break due to Michael's illness a new direction and health problems, though I would like to take it up again someday. My XXXXXXX instructor told me he was impressed by my self awareness and how much work I had done on myself and that in his opinion I would make an excellent and compassionate counselor someday..I had a 98% average in my courses,,I almost became a physician..At some level I know that good men and bad men are attracted to me as I am I suppose, an attractive and kind gentle person..at least I can say such positive things about myself now...I know also that there is a man at the synagogue who likes me too so it is in conflict with some false beliefs I have about myself as a woman whom people might genuinely like. I am getting there but the false beliefs I have about myself and my low self esteem that I still struggle with even after all of these years, five now of being out of a really abusive marriage, my second one actually..makes it hard to believe that XXXXXXX would still love me that is why it is so hard to be positive about this..I have DID which was quite severe but had a lot of counseling and integration but still at the age I was abused, two months and up you know that it is very difficult for me to even know who my original self is...though I am doing a lot better...I thank you so much for your help but I know a lot of it has to come from within.If you know the scripture in XXXXXXX 61 which Jesus quotes in the New Testament it reads."The Spirit of the Lord is upon me for He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted and to set free the captives and to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor. XXXXXXX also has DID and before the schizophrenia got so bad, both XXXXXXX and I saw him doing a lot of switching...he has periods of dissociative fugue with amnesia as well as memory loss from the schizophrenia...thanks so much for your help...my son and daughter and I thank our God for you...

Forgot to ask if u have seen delusions get weaker I'm people who are not taking treatment. If XXXXXXX and I were together I would do what I could to control the environment. In fact the only time he ever got peace was when he was here. He would fall asleep when I played soft music or sang spiritual songs while sitting on my sofa.Poor man was so tormented.