Question: I suffer from numerous mental disorders, like ADD, hypersensitivity, depression (persistent and lengthy), borderline personality disorder and suicidal tendencies. My doctor has prescribed lithosun 400 (400x2) daily. Does it have any side effect? Along with that the doctor has also prescribed Fludac 60mg.

Thank you for your response doctor. But, there are few things that i would like to share, not sure if it would be appropriate. Since i'm a hypersensitive individual, i get affected by negative or painful emotions on a tremendous level. I cannot control and start to rip off my hair, and i get into depression. Next year, my love is getting married and just the thought of it has caused a tremendous pain. Do you think i will survive when the actual marriage date comes? I have tried to commit suicide but could not execute them. Under no circumstances i can see her getting married and i would definitely take my life when that happens. Can these medicines stop me from killing myself?

Thank you for your response doctor. I was consulting a psychotherapist. She tried to help me a lot and was very good. But, gradually i became extremely depressed as the thought of losing my love was haunting me. Since im a hypersensitive individual i was not able to control the thoughts that were haunting me. And, in this case her marriage. I couldn't take it anymore and wrote to my therapist that im going to commit suicide, but did not mention the date. I fixed 26th Aoril as my final date in this world. I did not want to write that as i did not want anyone to have any idea of what i was planning. But, it slipped. She straightaway informed it to the girl whom i love, who accompanied me in one session. I postponed my suicide because they got to know of my plans. I know, no therapist can help me as i have reached the end of my cycle. Lets see, how long medicines can keep me alive.

Thank you for your response doctor. I have had an extremely lonely and isolated childhood. I am 30 years old and never had anyone in my life whom i can call close. I have friends, but none of them are close to me. I never had a best friend in my life. I never knew what best friend means. I never had any bonding with my parents or any relatives. I was never close to anyone. My mother still does not know what my favorite food is. I literally grew up all alone,. I never had anyone in my life with whom i can share my thoughts, feelings, emotions. I met my love in 2008. And, she is the fist person, who pulled me out of this wilderness that i was in. She is the first person who pulled me out of darkness. She was the first person who gave a hand when i fell down. And, she gave me shoulder to cry on. When i cried, she wiped my tears. My entire world has been built by her. Its because of her that i got happiness. Out of 30 years, i have spent almost 24 years lonely, crying and desperately looking for happiness. She is the first person and the only person who gave me happiness. She represents all the relationship that i never had; she is my father, mother, sister, brother, aunt, uncle, grandpa, grandma, best friend, partner, lover, wife... I am possessive about her because my entire world is about her. SHE represents the world to me. If she is gone, then i will be thrown back to wilderness again. I don't want to go back there. 2013 was the best year of my life! She was with me for 9 months and it was the happiest i have ever been! I never had any happiness that lasted so long!! It was overwhelming for me!!! Now, she talks of marriage and probably next year she will. She says she loved me only as a friend. I can understand that, but doctor, i can't live without her. There is no world out there that im a part of. SHE is the world. Im possessive because if she is gone then i will die. Im desperately trying to hold on to her, because it keeps me happy and alive. I can't let my world end. I can't go back to darkness. I dont want to end up in a mental asylum. I don't want to live all my life taking medicines. That's why i wanted to leave early, long before she gets married, so that she can overcome this loss and move on with her life, settle down. I don't want her to feel bad for me. I want her to hate me as much as possible because that will her help her get over the loss very quickly. She has a bright future and she must not waste that for me. SHE has to live.