Question: hi former smoker who started again due to breakdown with husband due to this hell mucus blocking thoart continually ears face nose completely blocked counghing cannot eat terrified when do you need help waiting to see ent again but i am completeley trapped please excuse spelling but on the edge of breakdown do i need help right now feel as if i cant cope and will choke

must be the worst case of excess mucus and chronic catarrah ever headache and terrible facial pain belching teeth hurt thought i had come from hell only to fall back into it had enough no pleasure being in this body thought it was never to late stop but have ruined my life and my sons never go out any more just suffer this hell to look after them and husband who lives downstairs and calls me a soft shit tried to explain the damage but not interested gp said it was not to do with smoking she has so got it wrong

Thank you i have been a very foolish lady who is paying the price just eaten and it is if the mucus in my thoart is totally blocking my face i pinch my nose and i can feel the mucus trapped in my ears with a circular pain in face which travel down my face to neck i cough and it releases some mucus in my thoart my smell is ok but i feel as though i am gasping in this triangle of mucus just want to cry and not panic i feel stuck in glue head pain terrible how do i come back from this coughing hardly clears it the mucus in my thoart is blocking everything teeth hurt how do i carry on like this looking after my family and not being able to have anyone beleive me if it was not for my wonderful sons i would give up but do not know how to come back from this for myself i was such a happy healthy person always a worrier but it is so so sad for my age still very active physically never still down just exist in mucus hell thank you for your reply it first started origanally 2006 stopped smoking started again then stopped for good when i was totally trapped went through hell they said give it a couple of years 4 years on still bad thought if i picked up the cigs and showed them that it was not all in my mind would be beleived now you are on your own afraid and being told you are mad hope one day i can have peace and answers pulling mucus out as i answer they say my lungs are ok so i have donated them if they will be any use to someone i want me back for me now hope i can send you that reply one day and not live in isolation watching my 72 year old neighbour enjoying his fags not bitter i had many many good years and my wish is to see my youngest sons reach 21 whatever hell i go through thank you

thank you explained to gp fam ily and husband i am afraid ive blown it feel like killing myself i have failed

there is so much mucus in my thoart it is complelety blocking my face totally out of control blood with it my face is killing me feel like going to hospital will they help in your opinion just feel totally light headed and blocked not sure how to cope any more told husband he says your fine no idea what mask of hell i am dealing with to act normal you cannot come back from this i loved life but not now the guilt is too XXXXXXX if only people would beleive what is happening to me i am not a quitter so sad i have done this but you cannot reverse the damage without others beleiving you and i know it is me who needs to cope with it but i never ever thought it would come to this if only they would help me to get back from this and not say it is all in my mind life is only to be lived in peace not fear

thank you so frightened i have one cigarette in the house and it will be the last i have suffered enough and am crying as i write this will try and be strong to look after my sons if i can and if i cannot cope in the morning will go straight to hospital it is no use pretending anymore i will not have a nervous breakdown or commit suicide i am not the first or last to be stupid or not believeddgp will not help any more hope i can reply with some peace soon it is not cancer or any sort of name you can put to it but this is hell sorry for spelling not to good at the moment with pain and fear said i would die or go mad in my own bed do not want to go to hospital but i need help with this this has been a long battle and i was ok for a good spell had a great life despite the mucus but this is too much the damage the cigs have done but i know having that last cig will not cure this and the journey to get back to normal will be hell too coughing wretching in pain and not in control is no fun one gp seemed to be more concerned with my husband coping and said we all like to be in control well i was until 50 a long time to cope not going to any more therapists done that once i had to call for emergency services so much mucus i was joking and being sick not all in my mind unfortunately excess mucus no fun just pulling it out of face it has my eyeliner on it so you can tell just how blocked my face is no no fun self inflicted or not so sorry to fail myself and everyone but they should walk my mile

thank you again will fight to the end however disgusting frightened and out of control because i am a mother who loves her sons even though they are men now do you never have a day off yourself and may i ask where you are based your approach to my problem has been the most honest and helpful yet

thank you for replying and i will try not to trouble you again unless help is hopeless from others and i rate your replies 10 out of 10 but i would like to leave it open for the time being hope this is ok