Brief Answer:
Keep your optimism alive and hope for best

Detailed Answer:
Hello thanks for writing again

The symptoms of depression like continuous crying, lying on bed all the day, not concentrating on anything, no interest in doing anything, feelings like life is over are all occurring because of significant life trauma you have suffered due to your boyfriend who is a patient of paranoid schizophrenia. You are in acute stress reaction.

If we consider psychological aspect of any life trauma then there are different stages that an individual passes from- First phase is denial, second is anger and third is bargaining. You have passed these psychological stages and currently you are in depressive stage. This is the reason your case manager is telling you that you are doing best. Once you pass from stage of depression then stage of acceptance will start. This will help to in passing the time, which you are probably finding difficult to pass. I would advise you to keep your optimism alive, don't think about bad aspects of life.

Try to relive memories you spent with him by talking to your son or some other close person. This will help to reduce the intensity of emotions. Don't cry again and again instead try again and again to accept that he is under influence of schizophrenia and paranoid delusions. When you would start accepting that he has no insight then your trauma will become a little less severe. This is really very difficult for me to say but you have to wait, and you have to have very high optimism in order to reduce your trauma.

For now don't expect that he will reply, at least he unblocked and this can be taken in positive manner. Give him time to recover, to come out of his delusions. If you are finding it very difficult you can discuss with your case manager for start of mild doses of anti-depressants to pass on that bad phase. He doesn't hate you but her has no insight (as schizophrenia patients have no insight) so he is doing all this under the influence of illness only.

Keep your hope and faith in GOD alive to see good thing happening in end.

Hope this helps in reducing some of your trauma, please don't hesitate to contact again in follow up question if you have more to say.

Thanks

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Brief Answer:
Keep waiting and try to pass your traumatic phase

Detailed Answer:
Hello again

I don't know much about legal system but if you can request the court that he is under delusions and is not under proper insight and this is the reason that he is behaving strangely, then the legal order can be reviewed and probably you can see him. But yes I am not sure about that.

Just one thing again, keep waiting and try to move past your traumatic phase. GOD will do best for you.

Thanks

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Brief Answer:
Don't write much in email

Detailed Answer:
Hello thanks for asking again

Even if you could not notify court about his illness still there is no problem. When you email him in a month please don't mention that he has caused a lot of harm to you and hurt you. This may make his delusion more strong. Just mention that you wanted to tell him that you are leaving and you care about him. Don't write a long email instead make it short but specific.

Right now don't think about the things that you will not see him again or will not see him before Israel. Just hope for best and wait for a month and then mail him. Keep your faith alive.

Thanks.

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