Question: Hi,
I've been struggling for 20 years w this visual disturbance in my brain. It's not in my eyes. I pass eye exams its in the brain. I experience not being able to see detail when I look at a screen or page. my brain doesn't register whats on the page. Its like there are blank spots and I only see certain parts of the page. The other symptom is driving in a car, I have no sense of direction as to how to navigate a trip. Im looking for answers as to what disease this could be caused by. It has caused so much frustration. (Wernick korsakoff) looks like I have those symptoms.
It gets pronounced when my emotional centers of the brain get triggored like after intimacy. this is a physical problem I can tell. How can I find out how to fix it and how can I get my life back? When I was 17 years old I used to get migraine headacches and during the headache spots were missing in my view. By age 23 this became permanent. I can't go to school and I can't work and I can only drive locally. I think this might be a major piece of my medical problems to be solved. I am also on truehope vitamins and minerals to try and heal the brain naturally. Medical science hasn't solved my brain struggles ever. I feel stronger and healthier w truehope vitamins.
I have missed appointments, suffered embarrassment, felt crazy, luckily im too smart and self aware to know that I am not crazy. I've suffered lack of coordination, miscalculations, spelled things wrong, and I was an honor student for the first part of my life without any of this.
At this point I just have caretakers help me w paper work and cooking and driving so I don't have to drive myself ragged.
Please tell me you know more about the brain to heal this than you did 20 years ago. They put me on medications that just sedated me for 20 years and now Im not on them anymore and I'm once again self aware.

Ok my history is anxiety and depression when I was 18 and going to college made it bad. When I was 17 I slept w a guy I wasn't attracted to and had guilt feelings for 2 years. I was an overly emotional girl. I felt so much that it was painful and when I was in high school my body just couldn't take the pressures especially after I did a stupid thing like sleep w someone w no chemistry but I was innocently confused.

My medical history which I didn't want to tell because once you get a diagnosis other doctors assume that's right and don't investigate further. I would rage in high school and I would get into confused states and I would get lost and drive for hours without knowing where I was going. I worried about tests and what ifs. What if I fail the test. My poor little body couldn't handle all the pressures.
By the time I was in college I was diagnosed w anxiety and depression there was an obsessive element in my attractions w men and I couldn't control my mind the animal inside just went wild w men. But it was all in my head and I was not permiscuous. I struggled w driving sense of direction, anxiety about college material because it was over my head and I struggled w relationships.
I have a neurology report and some other stuff. I'll try to download it tomorrow w my caretaker. I can't do it because of my visual disturbance.
What I want out of this is insight into any new technologies that might help, especially want to know what disorder this most likely sounds like. I'm anti medication for mental disorders. I'm at a catch 22. I never get anywhere goal wise. My life is about friends and routine. My own structure of exercise and support groups. I'm on disability since I stopped working at a super market 20 years ago.
Remember my disability now is mostly just the visual centers of the brain malfunction and I can't see detail. I can't see the signs or know what they mean when driving I don't understand roads and sense of direction since I'm 16. The visual impairment makes me crazy and so does getting to intimate w someone and obsessing about than. All these things are important.

Thanks for reading!
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It sent before I was done. One clue that something was wrong was when I had migraine headaches and the left side of my body went numb, so did the left side of my tongue and face and I saw blank spots in my vision and particles. It lasted24 hours also vomiting and confusion.