What Causes Suicidal Thoughts While Having PCOD?
My name is XXXXXXX I need help... I have been suffering since last 4 years and it was normal for me as I had PCOD, but now every moment I think of committing Suicide. I am not able to sleep properly. Every night I wake up suddenly and feel like screaming and crying. I am not able to control my anger. Many a times I have even tried to kill myself or my boyfriend just because of anger. Actually its all because of him. We have been in a relationship since last 10 years but since last 4 years I have caught him red-handed chatting with many other girls but still he never accepts that he has affair with anyone else. He even does not breaks-up with me. We are in a live-in relationship. Since last 1 year its nothing less than a mental torture to me. Its only because he lies to me. Only one thing I cannot take is the lie. but still he hides things from me just because I don't like it. Now the condition is I even see myself committing suicide in my dreams also I feel like there is someone always near me(whenever I am alone at home)screaming and asking me to see help and save her life. I live alone mostly and only things I can feel is to hang myself or to burn myself or stab myself with a knife. I have never made friends so that I can devote all my time to my boyfriend so I even cannot share my feelings to anyone. Not even my parents and they now want me to marry him.I don't think he loves me anymore. But my love is still the same. I find it difficult to hold my tears in public. Even I sometimes shout in my office as well without any reason. I have started to drink and smoke because of that. Please help. I can't explain what I am going through. I don't want to die. Please help.
Its time to seek professional help
Detailed Answer:
Hello,
Thanks for your query.
I appreciate your efforts for medical consultation in so much distress.
Important aspects of your query are:
• 26 year old female
• Known case of PCOD
• Multiple depressive symptoms for 4 years
• Issues of: Personal stress with BF.
• No friends
It is nice to see such a detailed description of your current suffering. From your detail history, it is clear that you have following symptoms:
• Anxiety, low mood, crying spells
• Excessive anger, Inability to control anger
• Loss of interest in pleasurable activities
• Loss of confidence
• Ideas of hopelessness
• Self harm ideas
All these are symptoms of depression and need attention in form of in person counselling.
Apart from that concurrently you have stress related to personal life with BF which can exacerbate your depression. Depression is not always situational (because of stress). Many times it is biological due to biochemical changes in brain. Your depression appears to biological and stress induced to me due to its severity.
Following measures will help you:
• First remember your situation is transient and will solve in few weeks if you follow professional help.
• Ask help from friends and family members, do not shy while discussing your problem.
• Make structured daily routine so that you can save time for yourself and for some recreational activities (Like Gym, movie and reading)
• Eat adequate food, fruits and drink juice. Avoid alcohol use if any
• Avoid addictive substance like alcohol and smoking as it tend to increase depression.
• It is good that you work but do not take much stress at workplace. Try to enjoy whatever work you get at workplace. Make some friends at workplace to break your monotonous life.
• Talk frequently with family members. If parents want you to marry then discus about it with BF.
• Most important visit psychiatrist with BF so that he can counsel you about your interpersonal issues and prescribe medicine for depression (if needed). Now very good medicines available for depression. People life changes within weeks of treatment. Apart from counselling treatment like Cognitive behavior therapy and relaxation therapy help greatly in treatment.
If you are in XXXXXXX NCR, you can visit me personally also after taking my address from healthcaremagic in Confidence Clinic.
I hope this information has been both informative and helpful for you. In case of any doubt, I will be available for follow ups.
Wish you good health.
Regards,
It is good decision
Detailed Answer:
Hello XXXXXXX
My address: Dr Mittal Clinic (Confidence Clinic), The Sapphire Mall, 248 (Second Floor), Behind Omaxe city centre, Opposite Orchid Petals society, Sohna Road, Sector 49, XXXXXXX (Haryana).
For appointment use Practo or contact 0000 Coordinator: XXXXXXX (call time: 9AM to 9PM)
You can follow google map (Confidence clinic, Gurgaon) to reach comfortably.
Take care