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What Causes Symptoms Of Major Depressive Disorder?
Question: Hello! I m an engineering students... I dnt knw wat is happening to me nowadays... Many tyms I feel sooooo lost n I ll b lyk wat d hell have m I doin... I ll b happy smilin all d while but I rarely express myself... There were d days wen I wanted to end my life... I had no option left... None by my side
I used to cry whole nyt to sleep.. Jst pray pray pray n pray tat I ll pass through somehow... I had done no wrng but too lost trust of mny imp people... I used to beg thm to trust me... None heard me... I was all alone... Like a living dead body
I came through it... Somehow... I decided to lock myself in a room
I did it...
I used to go to coll... Back to room...
2 years... Wit no touch of outer world... None evr stood by me
I still stood strong... I made up my mind to fight things all alone...
There were also days wen I was literally treated lyk a dog... Literally...
I even used to get scared to b @ home.. My dad wud screw me jst coz his office tensions.. I wud get scared everytym I saw me in those days
. but actually I luv my dad n respect him to d XXXXXXX .. All were there but still I was alone...
I evn used to think d tym in coll would b infinity so tat I ll never go out... Tat was jst coz I never used to talk in coll... N I dint wanted to talk also
In pu my frnd went unwell... I cudnt share anything wit her... I had to swallow everything all alone...
I used to talk allot allot... I stopped talking... I stopped moving out... I never used to talk to anyone...
I often say I wanna go off somewhere... I really wanted to... I wud go off... But dunno wat stopped me... I stood by myself...
Evn in my engg I have faced much... All my health issues werent due to any external food or something... It was all due to my emotional stress.. Tats wat I really feel many tyms..
Evn doc had once warned me tat if d same thing(I had visited the doc coz I wasn't well) continues n he ll have to give tabs to suppress my mind
I cud to nothing.. All I wud do is sit n cry... Cry n cry... Tats all.
Things started goin worst...
I started forgetting things...
I started forgetting d path, d room no, my class, classmates...
Everything
I was evn stuck in road... Dint know how to go back to hostel for a while
Few my close frnds knew this... But none helped me...
In class they used to keep some small tests... I wud mug up everything n go n bcum blank wen I actually had to write anything on d paper...... I cud do nthng..
I wud again try n again it wud repeat
After tat things were not in my control... I started getting admitted every now n thn... Everytime I wud wry n depress the next day I wud get admitted to hospital
I had to go all alone to hospital all d tym(I used to stay in hostel)
.. I once tried to speak out wit my frnd n I dunno y I tried to spk out... But I cudnt... I became mum... Cudnt say anything...
I m now jst lyk some one who can create some jokes n laugh... Not smile wit pleasure...
I have lost my self
Completely
I dunno to talk... I dunno wat I m doin... All I jst feel is to sit n cry for years... Tats all
Evn now I feel like goin off somewhere... Wit no one to bother...
Now somehow I m stable... But its not small thing now... I jst feel lyk goin n I may go off.....
I jst dont wanna hurt anyone by harmin me or goin off somewhere
I dunno wat to do
Coz of all this I had slept off once... Was fed up... N I cudnt getI dnt knw wats happening to me nowadays... Many tyms I feel sooooo lost n I ll b lyk wat d hell have m I doin... I ll b happy smilin all d while but I rarely express myself.. U know it... There were d days wen I wanted to end my life... I had no option left... None by my side
I used to cry whole nyt to sleep.. Jst pray pray pray n pray tat I ll pass through somehow... I had done no wrng but too lost trust of mny imp people... I used to beg thm to trust me... None heard me Abi... I was all alone... Like a living dead body
I came through it... Somehow... I decided to lock myself in a room
I did it...
I used to go to coll... Back to room...
2 years... Wit no touch of outer world... None evr stood by me
I still stood strong... I made up my mind to fight things all alone...
There were also days wen I was literally treated lyk a dog... Literally...
I even used to get scared to b @ home... All were there but still I was alone...
I evn used to think d tym in coll would b infinity so tat I ll never go out... Tat was jst coz I never used to talk in coll... N I dint wanted to talk also
In pu my frnd went unwell... I cudnt share anything wit her... I had to swallow everything all alone...
I used to talk allot allot... I stopped talking... I stopped moving out... I never used to talk to anyone...
I often say I wanna go off somewhere... I really wanted to... I wud go off... But dunno wat stopped me... I stood by myself...
Evn in my engg I have faced much... All my health issues werent due to any external food or something... It was all due to my emotional stress
Evn doc had once warned me tat if d same thing continues he ll have to give tabs to suppress my mind
I cud to nothing.. All I wud do is sit n cry... Cry n cry... Tats all.
Things started goin worst...
I started forgetting things...
I started forgetting d path, d room no, my class, classmates...
Everything
I was evn stuck in road... Dint know how to go back to hostel for a while
Few my close frnds of coll knew this... But none helped me...
In class they used to keep some small tests... I wud by hrt everything n go n bcum blank... N forget everything... I cud nthng
I wud again try n again it wud repeat
After tat things were not in my control... I started getting admitted every now n thn... Everytime I wud wry n depress the next day I wud get admitted to hospital
I had to go all alone to hospital all d tym
Yest... I n Gowth were spkin something n I dunno y I tried to spk out... But I cudnt... I became mum... Cudnt say anything...
I m now jst lyk some one who can create some jokes n laugh... Not smile wit pleasure...
I have lost my self abi
Completely
I dunno to talk... I dunno wat I m doin... All I jst feel is to sit n cry for years... Tats all
Evn now I feel like goin off somewhere... Wit no one to bother...
Now somehow I m stable... But its not small thing now... I jst feel lyk goin n I may go off... Sometimes I do off it...
I jst dont wanna hurt anyone by harmin me or goin off somewhere
I dunno wat to do
Coz of all this I had slept off once... Was fed up... N I cudnt get up for 2 days...
I had slept off for 2 days wit no fud no water nthng
I had to take tabs for being awake... Doc had prescriped me sum tabs for tat..
I feel I m in depression.. M not sure... I tried goin through some tests on net... N result was rite... The result was u better consult a doc...
I dunno anything
I dunno wat to do now
I have no idea wat I m in now
I feel so numb sometime, actually many tyms.. I have been facing health issues coz of it.. May b since 5 years I m facing the health issues. One or d other thing ll b thr for sure.. I feel this is d cause.. Can u plz tel me wat I m supposed to do?!expecting a soon reply
I used to cry whole nyt to sleep.. Jst pray pray pray n pray tat I ll pass through somehow... I had done no wrng but too lost trust of mny imp people... I used to beg thm to trust me... None heard me... I was all alone... Like a living dead body
I came through it... Somehow... I decided to lock myself in a room
I did it...
I used to go to coll... Back to room...
2 years... Wit no touch of outer world... None evr stood by me
I still stood strong... I made up my mind to fight things all alone...
There were also days wen I was literally treated lyk a dog... Literally...
I even used to get scared to b @ home.. My dad wud screw me jst coz his office tensions.. I wud get scared everytym I saw me in those days
. but actually I luv my dad n respect him to d XXXXXXX .. All were there but still I was alone...
I evn used to think d tym in coll would b infinity so tat I ll never go out... Tat was jst coz I never used to talk in coll... N I dint wanted to talk also
In pu my frnd went unwell... I cudnt share anything wit her... I had to swallow everything all alone...
I used to talk allot allot... I stopped talking... I stopped moving out... I never used to talk to anyone...
I often say I wanna go off somewhere... I really wanted to... I wud go off... But dunno wat stopped me... I stood by myself...
Evn in my engg I have faced much... All my health issues werent due to any external food or something... It was all due to my emotional stress.. Tats wat I really feel many tyms..
Evn doc had once warned me tat if d same thing(I had visited the doc coz I wasn't well) continues n he ll have to give tabs to suppress my mind
I cud to nothing.. All I wud do is sit n cry... Cry n cry... Tats all.
Things started goin worst...
I started forgetting things...
I started forgetting d path, d room no, my class, classmates...
Everything
I was evn stuck in road... Dint know how to go back to hostel for a while
Few my close frnds knew this... But none helped me...
In class they used to keep some small tests... I wud mug up everything n go n bcum blank wen I actually had to write anything on d paper...... I cud do nthng..
I wud again try n again it wud repeat
After tat things were not in my control... I started getting admitted every now n thn... Everytime I wud wry n depress the next day I wud get admitted to hospital
I had to go all alone to hospital all d tym(I used to stay in hostel)
.. I once tried to speak out wit my frnd n I dunno y I tried to spk out... But I cudnt... I became mum... Cudnt say anything...
I m now jst lyk some one who can create some jokes n laugh... Not smile wit pleasure...
I have lost my self
Completely
I dunno to talk... I dunno wat I m doin... All I jst feel is to sit n cry for years... Tats all
Evn now I feel like goin off somewhere... Wit no one to bother...
Now somehow I m stable... But its not small thing now... I jst feel lyk goin n I may go off.....
I jst dont wanna hurt anyone by harmin me or goin off somewhere
I dunno wat to do
Coz of all this I had slept off once... Was fed up... N I cudnt getI dnt knw wats happening to me nowadays... Many tyms I feel sooooo lost n I ll b lyk wat d hell have m I doin... I ll b happy smilin all d while but I rarely express myself.. U know it... There were d days wen I wanted to end my life... I had no option left... None by my side
I used to cry whole nyt to sleep.. Jst pray pray pray n pray tat I ll pass through somehow... I had done no wrng but too lost trust of mny imp people... I used to beg thm to trust me... None heard me Abi... I was all alone... Like a living dead body
I came through it... Somehow... I decided to lock myself in a room
I did it...
I used to go to coll... Back to room...
2 years... Wit no touch of outer world... None evr stood by me
I still stood strong... I made up my mind to fight things all alone...
There were also days wen I was literally treated lyk a dog... Literally...
I even used to get scared to b @ home... All were there but still I was alone...
I evn used to think d tym in coll would b infinity so tat I ll never go out... Tat was jst coz I never used to talk in coll... N I dint wanted to talk also
In pu my frnd went unwell... I cudnt share anything wit her... I had to swallow everything all alone...
I used to talk allot allot... I stopped talking... I stopped moving out... I never used to talk to anyone...
I often say I wanna go off somewhere... I really wanted to... I wud go off... But dunno wat stopped me... I stood by myself...
Evn in my engg I have faced much... All my health issues werent due to any external food or something... It was all due to my emotional stress
Evn doc had once warned me tat if d same thing continues he ll have to give tabs to suppress my mind
I cud to nothing.. All I wud do is sit n cry... Cry n cry... Tats all.
Things started goin worst...
I started forgetting things...
I started forgetting d path, d room no, my class, classmates...
Everything
I was evn stuck in road... Dint know how to go back to hostel for a while
Few my close frnds of coll knew this... But none helped me...
In class they used to keep some small tests... I wud by hrt everything n go n bcum blank... N forget everything... I cud nthng
I wud again try n again it wud repeat
After tat things were not in my control... I started getting admitted every now n thn... Everytime I wud wry n depress the next day I wud get admitted to hospital
I had to go all alone to hospital all d tym
Yest... I n Gowth were spkin something n I dunno y I tried to spk out... But I cudnt... I became mum... Cudnt say anything...
I m now jst lyk some one who can create some jokes n laugh... Not smile wit pleasure...
I have lost my self abi
Completely
I dunno to talk... I dunno wat I m doin... All I jst feel is to sit n cry for years... Tats all
Evn now I feel like goin off somewhere... Wit no one to bother...
Now somehow I m stable... But its not small thing now... I jst feel lyk goin n I may go off... Sometimes I do off it...
I jst dont wanna hurt anyone by harmin me or goin off somewhere
I dunno wat to do
Coz of all this I had slept off once... Was fed up... N I cudnt get up for 2 days...
I had slept off for 2 days wit no fud no water nthng
I had to take tabs for being awake... Doc had prescriped me sum tabs for tat..
I feel I m in depression.. M not sure... I tried goin through some tests on net... N result was rite... The result was u better consult a doc...
I dunno anything
I dunno wat to do now
I have no idea wat I m in now
I feel so numb sometime, actually many tyms.. I have been facing health issues coz of it.. May b since 5 years I m facing the health issues. One or d other thing ll b thr for sure.. I feel this is d cause.. Can u plz tel me wat I m supposed to do?!expecting a soon reply
Brief Answer:
Possible Major Depressive Disorder.
Detailed Answer:
Hello, XXXXXXX
I can certainly understand your concerns.
I can empathize with your feelings.
As per your narrated history, you possibly seem to have Major Depressive Disorder.
Depression is pretty common in the society of people. One has varied degrees of severity in depression.
So I would like to tell you not to feel indifferent about the diagnosis.
First and foremost, identify the triggers(situations) that bring about episodes of ill feelings in your case.
The triggers can cause psychological conflicts in the mind and generate stress within the individual.
The triggers can be anything like personal relationship conflicts, academic or financial etc.If you can identify and control the triggers, you will start feeling good and positive about yourself.It's all there in controlling the negative emotions.
At the moment, you require antidepressive therapy. This will certainly make you feel good and normal about yourself.
Initially it may take 3 months for the drugs to act and show their response. So you should be patient enough until the drugs show their full effect.
The treatment duration may extend for 1-3 years based on the degree of response.
Initially treatment is started with a combination of one or more drugs with optimum doses .Later if response is good,the doses may be titrated and monotherapy with a single drug may be adopted.
During the course, You may experience minor side effects like Constipation and Gastritis. But they subside over a time period.
A drug holiday is usually given on Sunday to reduce the incidence of side effects.
I generally prescribe my patients with oral pills of LIMBITROL one pill daily at bedtime and PANTOP D one pill daily at 7 am on empty stomach daily for 1 month initially. Based on the response, I will go for alternative medication.
Please Check with your physician if he shares my view and if can prescribe these medications to you.
Don't worry. You will certainly be alright with time.
Whenever you feel low, immediately write to me on this forum.
I am always there to counsel you ,no matter what.
Start feeling good about yourself.
Post your further queries if any.
Thank you
Possible Major Depressive Disorder.
Detailed Answer:
Hello, XXXXXXX
I can certainly understand your concerns.
I can empathize with your feelings.
As per your narrated history, you possibly seem to have Major Depressive Disorder.
Depression is pretty common in the society of people. One has varied degrees of severity in depression.
So I would like to tell you not to feel indifferent about the diagnosis.
First and foremost, identify the triggers(situations) that bring about episodes of ill feelings in your case.
The triggers can cause psychological conflicts in the mind and generate stress within the individual.
The triggers can be anything like personal relationship conflicts, academic or financial etc.If you can identify and control the triggers, you will start feeling good and positive about yourself.It's all there in controlling the negative emotions.
At the moment, you require antidepressive therapy. This will certainly make you feel good and normal about yourself.
Initially it may take 3 months for the drugs to act and show their response. So you should be patient enough until the drugs show their full effect.
The treatment duration may extend for 1-3 years based on the degree of response.
Initially treatment is started with a combination of one or more drugs with optimum doses .Later if response is good,the doses may be titrated and monotherapy with a single drug may be adopted.
During the course, You may experience minor side effects like Constipation and Gastritis. But they subside over a time period.
A drug holiday is usually given on Sunday to reduce the incidence of side effects.
I generally prescribe my patients with oral pills of LIMBITROL one pill daily at bedtime and PANTOP D one pill daily at 7 am on empty stomach daily for 1 month initially. Based on the response, I will go for alternative medication.
Please Check with your physician if he shares my view and if can prescribe these medications to you.
Don't worry. You will certainly be alright with time.
Whenever you feel low, immediately write to me on this forum.
I am always there to counsel you ,no matter what.
Start feeling good about yourself.
Post your further queries if any.
Thank you
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