Brief Answer:
Start medicines please, it will help a lot
Detailed Answer:
hello nod welcome to HCM!
I have read yoru question carefully and from my clinical experince I can tell you that there is some problem with thoughts in you, and that there is an intense need maintain sameness all time.
In
OCD,
-- there are one or more thoughts or acts which patients has to repeat, as he cannot resist them. (
emetophobia can be one of them)
- the thoughts are considered to be his own, but not he does not want to have them
- he is unable to make them change and they come repeatedly to him, causing distress
- usually he has insight to the thoughts been irrational, but in severe cases, the insight is lost
In your case, I think that you have never been treated, you are young female, and I can understand how you might be disturbed by them now.
But in away knowing that it is an illness, it will help you, as now you will want to stop them and will be ready to take medicines to help yourself.
I have seen patients showing excellent response with
fluvoxamine 50-150 mg, along with may be some thing like resperidone ( lately if needed). You have mentioned that the thoughts are escalating, so I feel that adding something initially will give better and quick response in your case.
Ther is very good response when medicines are combinaed with CBT ( ERP) in OCD, almost vanishing the disorder.
---but in OCD, the patient has to do some homework , unlike some other psychiatric illness where only drugs are enough. So, you have to repeat and practice ERP at home, and have to try to curb the patterned behaviour.
There are many patients whom I have seen becoming absolutely fine with treatment. So, please donot feel so sad about it.
You should meet your doctor, and discuss these medicines with him, he will know how to go about with therapy also.
Feel free to ask more questions for clarification if you need.
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Dr. Manisha Gopal
MD psychiatry