2000 had my thyroid removed' I weighed 86# .had a goiter that weighed 33grms. Had heart cond. And had to take meds for fast palpatations and skipping beats at same time. Been on depression meds on and off. I take 137mcg levothyroxin. Recently went to er for cutting myself due to anxiety meds and a couple of beers. Mom died of cancer exactly one year ago. Her grandmother had thyroid cancer. Doc says reasoning is just bad luck. Black cloud over my head.. I'm never happy. Snap of fingers and I'm either bitchy or crying a river. I'm fixing to be 42yrs. Old. It hurts to move. Arthritis is killing me in every joint in my body. I am positive I have fibromyalga.doc doesn't feel the same. I take meloxicam for joint pain. Doesn't do a damn thing. Doc. Won't listen. My area there is no one I know of that can help me. He won't refer me anywhere. I drink more and more to help with anxiety and pain. I work full time. I'm a mother of five and grandmother of two and one on the way. Stress is killing me. I always wear a frown. I'm never happy. My hand look like the start of Charlton Heston. I depend on my job for bills but I know soon I won't be able to work. I drop everything. Knots in my knuckles are growing. I'm in pain and no one is hearing me. Help me find someone that will listen and help me. I don't want to die at 57 like my mother. Degenerate back disease from her has passed to me also. I have had cortisone shots in my hips. Only thing I got from those shots was a lot of vaginal bleeding. For three months. I'm tired sad mad and want to give up. My body is so wore out. I'm 42 but I actually look like I'm in late 20,s. I'm grateful but its slowly killing me. I'm completely fray headed. Its falling out more and more every day. I weigh around 100#. I don't gain weight. But I'm always going and going. On my feet all the time. Diet is horrible. And I don't have a support team wat so ever.. I'm willing to do wat I need to to be healthy and live longer but I have 0 help. Plz. Help me find someone to treat me and help me feel as normal as possible. I realize normal will never happen for me but close to it is good to me. YYYY@YYYY is my email. If I have struck a cord in a heart willing to help I am appreacitive. I'm slowly going down hill. I still have a senior and a middle school child in school and they need their mother. Plz help, thank you' Amy.