After a few great years with my boyfriend I finally agreed to fulfill a long-time fantasy of his and sleep with another man. What was initially I thought a one-time thing has now turned into a big part of our sex life. After submitting a picture for an "amateur" contest to a popular website catering to "swingers" and winning the contest for best picture ( no monetary prize), we received a bunch of offers to participate in adult films. We were shocked by the amount of money offered and eventually flew down to southern California and filmed a video with a very well known adult video company. My co-stars ( sorry, I couldn't resist) are professional adult film actors. They are very well-endowed and I had a difficult time adjusting to this throughout the entire filming. There were many times we had to stop filming because I was physically in pain. The film crew, everybody, was very accommodating and supportive, and assured me that I would get used to it if I decided to film more videos. I am wondering how much of it is mental. To be fair, it wasn't always painful. Mostly I couldn't stop thinking of the possibility of physical damage, but I never found a sign of any. I did experience intense soreness that lingered for a few days. Recently I was offered a contract by the film company to appear in several more videos and the amount of money is enough that it could change the way my BF and I live. What I need is to find a doctor who I can express my concerns with (not my longtime physician), and be told that I am going to be okay having sexual intercourse with extremely endowed men and not end up with long term damage. I am too mortified to see someone in person but I am wondering if it's possible to talk with a doctor online, preferably a female, and possibly have them view a clip of the film or any stills so they can see what I'm talking about. Is that even something a doctor can do? Please let me know. Sincerely, Chelsea and Christian.