why do we trust our doctors for medicines that makes you want to kill yourself,I was in a serious car accident in1981 two death, i was suppose to be the third,broken leg,knee twisted at a 180 degree angle,2x4 in my leg watch entered my wrist,which was found in x-rays,so leginament pain YES I fired my family doctor because in 96 i was on 240 T3s 90 oxys.,40 mil. so on tried methadone for 3 years,stopped cold turkey at 25 mil. 6 months ago i tell ya i was in depression big time.But now,that pain is still there,because to the doctors eyes i`m an addict, i`m red flagged,so they prescribe me advils or stupid shit like that.Now i got no more family doctors its hard to get one ,but still need help cause now i`m suffering,worked underground for 31 years 50 years old,what can i do or use for pain other than drugs?