HI Thank for asking to HCM I can understand your problem, I am really sorry for that , but loosing moral because of undue circumstances is not wise the anxiety and depression could cause more problem right now you have to find the ways that could ease your tension but you are inviting to such things that could increase your problem for sure, taking medicine in this situation again not good idea because drug could stops your thinking area, better to brig back your confidence, think in positive way, form a strategy for further life, hope this information helps you take care and have good luck.