HI, I am a college student and everything was ok, but after I graduated some concerns came up with family and I went through some trauma with dealing with them. This went on for about one and half years at least and it has really thrown off my brain. I need help from a doctor because I m not sure exactly what it is and I definitely cant live like this for the rest of my life, I feel like im in pain. I have been to many counselors and psychiatrists because my parents forced me to, for the wrong reasons and the whole thing was a very traumatic situation for me. Now, even if I need any medications , I refuse to take them because of what occurred with my family, it would just throw me into a serious depression . I need an outside supportive advice from sometime to help me figure out whats wrong with my brain, maybe its my lifestyle? I would really like to go back to feeling myself like I was in high school. I was working toward being a doctor myself and have seen many in the past and future but nothing is working out.