HI, MY NAME IS MIKE. I AM 56 AND IN A PAIN CLINIC [ AULTMAN PAIN MNGT ] IN CANTON OHIO FOR 10 PLUS YEARS WITH NO PROBLEM WITH ILLEGAL DRUG USE. I AM ON 100 MG TIME RELEASES 3X A DAY, 8MG DILLAUDED WHEN NEEDED AND MOBIC 7.5 MG 2X A DAY, 4-8 MG ZANAFLEX EVERY 6 HRS OR SO WHEN NEEDED. I STARTED 6-900 MG OF NURONTIN AND IT HELPS BUT MAKES YOU SLEEPY. I HAD BEEN SMOKING POT THE LAST FEW MONTHS 3-4 TIMES A MONTHS FOR HELP WITH DEPRESSION FROM PAIN. THE PAIN IS FROM LOWER SPINE & NECK WITH WITH A LOT OF STENOSIS FROM DISC DEG. WITH A BODY FULL OF ARTHRITIS . I HAVE DEVELOPED NEUROPATHY IN MY FEET AND LEGS AND IT IS VERY BAD. AFTER CRUSHING 2 OR SOMETIMES 3 100MG MORPHINE AFTER WAKING, I AM ABLE TO WALK UP STAIRS IN ABOUT 2-3 HRS AND WITHOUT DOING THAT, I CAN'T WALK FOR 4-5 HRS. I FEEL LIKE WALKING ON MARBLES IN MY BARE FEET. THE PAIN IS VERY BAD AND IT IS VERY HARD TO DESCRIBE IT TO A DR. AND CAUSE YOU DO SEE IT, YOU HAVE TO EXPLAIN AND THEN YOU GET THE FEELING YOUR DR. IS THINKING YOU WANT TO HAVE MORE JUST TO HAVE IT. DOCTOR, MY ISSUE IS THIS, MY TOLERANCE FOR MORPHINE IS HIGH, VERY HIGH. AFTER BEING VERY ACTIVE FROM , WORKING ON A CAR OR THE HOUSE OR TRYING TO EXERCISE, SOMETIMES THE PAIN IS UNBELIEVABLE AND TRYING TO GET MORE OR STRONGER IS DIFFICULT. I CAN AND HAVE HAD TO TAKE 6-8 100 MG MORPHINE IN A 3 HR SPAN WITH 2-3 DILAUDED AND ABSOLUTELY NO HEAD BUZZ OF ANY TYPE. MY TOLERANCE IS VERY HIGH ON ALMOST ALL DRUGS. HOW DO YOU GET DR.S TO SEE OR AGREE THAT YOU DO AND HOW DO YOU FIND OUT AND DEAL WITH IT. THE POT REALLY HELPED WITH MY DEPRESSION FROM THE PAIN AND TRYING TO BACK OFF FROM MORE PILLS SO AS NOT TO GO OVER MY DAILY LIMIT OF PILLS. THE DEPRESSION IS SO BAD FROM THE PAIN THAT I HAVE PLANNED TO KILL MYSELF. BUT THE POT HELPS TO EASE ALL OF IT AND DULLS THE PAIN SO AS NOT TO CARE AND I CAN BE ACTIVE AND HAPPY. IT MAKES NO SENSE THAT BOOZE IS LEGAL BUT NOT A LITTLE POT. HOW CAN I BE HELPED WITH THIS. I HAVE TRIED COUNSELING BUT ALL I GET IT SAME STUFF LIKE LEARN TO DEAL WITH IT ALL AND AT 56, TRUST ME, I HAVE LEARNED ALL THERE IS ABOUT WHAT I HAVE AND WHAT I CAN DO BUT WITH IT GETTING ALWAYS WORSE, AND NO WAY TO BE PAIN FREE. CAN MY DR. BE REASSURED OF ME NOT BEING AN EVIL DRUG ADDICT? DO I JUST SUFFER? HE KNOWS I AM A GGOD GUY BUT THE LETTER I GOT FROM REGISTERED MAIL LOOKED TO BE FROM THE HOSPITAL AND NOT HIM PERSONALLY. CAN YOU HELP ME???? AFTER READING AND GOING FARTHER IN TO THIS I FIND I HAVE TO PAY FOR IT AND IF I KNEW BEFORE I WENT THROUGH ALL THIS THAT IT WAS GOING TO COST ME, I NEVER WOULD HAVE BOTHERED........