hi my name is raewyn and i have been seeing a doctor for almost 2 years so far i have high blood pressure to the point that it got as high as200 and she gave some pills to get it down and never followed up on it so i had to go and get it tested my self i have had a lot of problems with it and only once it went as low as130 it gose up and down all the time and i am so used to going with it then i discover that i have several problems depreeion since the death of my husband from cancer and i nursed him till he died my heart dosent always pump normaly and i have had realy bad chest pain and have sort treatment for it but it will stay with me for the rest of my life they tell me that i have bad colestrel and i have siatica i am taking that many pills i dont no if i am arther or martha my left leg is so pain ful i am taking twice the dosage to get a little releif they gave me temadol 50 mgs and it was not helping so she doubled the dose to100 mith anti inflamotoyry tablets it never helped now i am on codine andibrofine i am a bit sceared of taking all these tablets should i stop why am i still alive are they tring to kill me i would value your insight to these questions very much thankyou