Having A Terrible Summer. I Slowly Eased Into These Symptoms,

Having a terrible summer. I slowly eased into these symptoms, and after last night I just couldn't take it anymore. I had to share.

I woke up after an hour of sleep having weird feelings like I'm losing control and going crazy. Feel very weird, dreamlike, and scared, and couldn't stop thinking about it until I finally fell asleep.

Woke up today and immediately thought about these feelings. Scared about what/why it is happening and constantly thinking about it. Thinking about it so much that I feel like I will never return to a normal state of living, like this will always be dragging on my mind.

When I finally think about something that I should look forward to and it usually would excite me, the thoughts immediately pop back into my head and a negative, dreadful feeling comes over me.

For a year and 5 months I was on effexor 75mg for similar feelings but was able to stop, and felt perfectly normal for my entire senior year of college. These weird symptoms started when I came home for summer in May, and have been going on for 2 months. I try to battle it by doing normal daily activities like working, socializing, working out, trying to find other hobbies, but these thoughts are running through my head the entire time.

I don't want to start my meds again because I was literally feeling perfectly normal two months ago at school. It's so frustrating! I was going out with friends, living it up, and just feeling happy. I was able to fight off any of these feelings because I was surrounded by friends 24/7. Now it seems like I'm losing control and nothing will be normal again.

Please tell me why this is happening and what I should I do!