Hello!
My name is Daniil, I'm from Ukraine, the city of Mariupol. I am 20 years old.

I have a certain psychological feature that makes it difficult for me to live. I ask you to help me and provide any advice on solving this problem (any actions that can improve the situation, or any pills - anything you can start with). Now closer to the point.

I have big problems with communication and social adaptation in principle.
To begin with, I communicate on the Internet very much:
1) I work as a programmer and look for orders on the network, so often I communicate with my clients without any discomfort, it even gives me pleasure. I'm good at recognizing people, understanding the psychology of their thinking and even making them think exactly as it would be convenient for me to take my side and my opinion.
2) I masterly communicate with people on social networks. It does not matter whether I know this person in life - every time I surprise friends on the Internet with my sense of humor, a manner of communication and creativity.

I do not want to praise myself, I just want to emphasize more precisely how well I get to communicate with people in this kind of communication - that is, in the Internet.

It turns out that this is my comfort zone, and being in it I have no problems with communication and I feel fine with other people.

But as soon as someone tries to talk to me in life, especially if this person was not familiar to me before - my brain literally turns off and I absolutely can not think at all about anything.

When in reality a stranger asks me a question - I can give only the most primitive answer, and this at best. Not being able to think at the same time, I answer some kind of nonsense and rather try to end the conversation and leave. It's also very difficult for me to look people in the eyes, especially during a conversation.

That you understand - in life from virtuosic communication, which delivers me only pleasure, there is absolutely nothing left.

So it happened even when I was at school. I always had very few friends (now they do not exist at all), I was afraid to approach people once more, I was very shy, and I had great difficulties with the answers in the lessons. Any mass events made me fear.

Every time I attend any event or institution, where I should be good as well as other people - I feel fear, panic, and I want it to end as soon as possible.

If I try to flesh out, it seems to me that I feel bad with people in real life because:

1) I constantly think about how correctly I do everything, including how I walk or eat, and what other people will think about it.
2) The same applies specifically to communication - in life I am very taciturn and not verbose, because I think more about how not to say something that is not suitable or puts me in a bad light - and in the end I just keep quiet.
3) My behavior in people absolutely does not correspond to my real personality, and this worries me greatly. I even have a headache after every walk on the street, because every time I think about my walk and try to change something, because of this I do not move naturally and I realize it myself. I feel uncomfortable, nervous, wrong breathing, etc.

I just can not think about other people as I do at home when I'm alone.
And if other people appear I can not seem to make myself think and all the processes in my head stop until I again do not remain alone with myself.

In crowded places, I can not do anything normally.

If you have read it to the end, thank you very much for your time. I really hope for your help in finding a solution, or at least a little advice.

I really want to learn how to behave in real life as well as in the network. It would perfectly help me in my work and in finding true friends, and just when I need to help some stranger on the street.