I have been diagnosed with depression, bi-polar disorder, seizure disorder, extreme anxiety, cronic headaches I was beaten by my ex husband for23 yrs it started at the age of 14 ive tried to kill myself twice. my great grandfather, grand father, father, sister, brother and neice have all commited suicide. I hear the voice of my ex husband telling me to do bad things to myself. I have been cutting myself for years. Im so scared I am blind in one eye from the abuse and have had a broken hip as well plus many many different trauma. my anxiety level is so high I hide in my room cause I cant stand the grand babys yelling and screaming and crying I have horrific night mares please can you help me please