I think on things and obssed over think on it even on simple things, i overthink on it then suddenly it becomes irrational and start to feel it , then i start to panic and start to feel like im gonna be crazy and feels like i forgot to breathe and my heart will stop , i just wanted to cry out loud but im a ashame , feels lile there is no where to go , there is no safe place , i cant focus , all in my head is fear , fear , fear and fear of they will laugh so i should keep it on myself but cant help it . almost every part of my days becomes worser and worser coz of this , i cant sleep though the thought i may forgot how to .. Im such a psycho , i never be able to talk with some proffesional coz im afraid that they will reject me and laugh me instead .. I dont know why i am so lile this , its like i cant enjoy my life .