Hello, I feel sorry for your situation and can understand your concern. I can understand your childhood issues but you or me do not have any control over them now. What has happened in childhood has happened and it cannot be changed. So try not to regret continuously over past and live in present. You have developed introvert personality due to lack of confidence you have always felt. Try to open up to your close friends and relatives and then you can open up to distant people or strangers. As you are having conversations in mind, it is clear that you do have some unspoken words or feelings that need to come out and set you free. If you can not talk to friends or relatives, you can consult a psychiatrist or mental health professional. They are experts in understanding emotions and can give you counselling sessions to bring you into present life and forget the childhood trauma. They can also prescribe you medicines to make you feel better during the phase of treatment. I hope this information helps you. Thank you for trusting us with your query. Let us know if you need any further information. Take care. Best, Dr. Viraj Shah