Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The understanding of your systems are the perfect way to avoid these problems. You know things well but you act as if you are not matured. Be mature. Treat these things as your system and others does. You belong to a system. Respect it and keep the ego and obsession away. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.