I am struggling with major depression. I have had 4 suicides in my life. First my brother David hung himself in the barn. Then my husband hung himself in his friends garage. Then my father slit his wrists in his car in rock springs. Then my mother took an over dose last Oct. I cannot get over these losses/images. I have no insurance .I have been Several times to Lakeside here in Orlando but not gotten help I desperately need. Please,I have 5 boys I want to be strong for. I need HELP!!