I don't really know how to categorize my question or put it under a title.
I call my persoanlity "the I don't know". It has been happening a lot, but whenever a decision should be made, I usually don't know what to do. And I mean I really don't. I don't know my personality at all. Like what I really want or what makes me comfortable. Whenever I argue with someone and they tell me I know why you did it and say the reason they think is why I did something. My immediate respone would be no. But then after the argument is over I think " Did I really do it because of the reason I said I did it because of or because of what they said?" I really do not know the answer and I start questioning.
Lately, i feel like my inner self is rebelling. For example, I know I should be studying and having thoughts about college and stuff. But all I think about is what am I really like? What do I want? Why am I in medical school? Did I choose it because I really wanted it?. And then i think well I am not smart as other people anyways this is why I am failing. Whenever I face a problem I ask my parents or close friends becausw I believe that if I made the decision it would always be wrong and that I am not smart enough to make any decisions. So i thought that maybe I have a physical condition like a brain tumor that may cause me to feel stupid or the way I do. But there is actually nothing wrong physically.
Please help me get through this.
Thanks in advance