I Had Smoked Weed First Time Last Year, Well To

I had smoked weed first time last year, well to be true I was like lunatic or paranoid or psychopath from the time I used to get consious ! I always thought about space and endless possibilities of life ! How do energy exist ? well and thousands of other questions, but when I smoked last year weed, my mind starts giving me new ideas at very fast rate, I had not imagined these new ideas before, due to which I choose to do engineering, well these are researchers thought, but I had'nt know at that time, my friend told me to do engineering, cause its all about science, we smoke weed once in a week and had conversation, the thoughts are soo intance, we want to think that way when we are not high, but soon it became real, my frirst day in college (engineering college, computer science) it was good, well we had physics subject in first semester for all engineering basics, but I really liked it, I hadconversed some quantum mechanics topic with my physics teacher in class, at that time he liked that, but all I wanted to see his vision and get inspired by him, he adviced me to visualize the subjects ! well for me who was lunatic by birth in this endless space around universe and endless phenomemon and possibility with perspactive to time, it was the first time I made it betwwen few unknown and new people and a physics teacher, whose suggestion would be my first prioroty,and I started doing that( visualizing subject) but my others teachers starts getting angry on me because of my unusual doubts, my collegues starts bulleying me that you had a really great brain, you are going to top the college, but things messed up, whole college messing up with me, all teachers all students,they starts enterfearing my personal life, my girlfriend, my private chats (the one frinds I made in college who used to come home, were not my friends) , my suggestion on my any activity and make fun of that to hurts me in front of people and every one laugh when I get hurt ! my chemistry teacher lived near my house, I figured out she really had a real problem with me, I had asked her a doubt, but had not answered that, nor had tell me that its a wrong doubt, soon I realise she is the reason who made whole college like this cause I hurt her ego ! my another friend the friend with her brother because of fear not to loose my career I thought she must never know that I smoke with with my friends,but that fi=riend did just opposite of it,n tell her brother that I said so, n college become more cruel, soon they ruined my life, I cantexplain its too much now,when I asked help from my friends, they also moved on, my girllfriend alsolived me,even I stopped smoking weed like from january 2016,but nothing changed,itslike everyone is saying to go and suicide,there is nothing for you in this world