I have been in a relationship for 8 years and now I'm engaged but he is not well settled And own house amd even a car as well as I can get access to whatever i want..but main problem is he is been abusive to me don't want to spend his time with me all he do is being cranky at me and mocking myself out..i feel low and lonely and i want to break this relationship but it is too hard for me as it is official..sometimes he said so many mean things that i beat myself i want to cheat him so that i can get my revenge from him..help me plz