Is It Possible That 3 Months Of Injections 234mg Max

Is it possible that 3 months of injections 234mg max dose could have messed my brain or cans up, if so is this temporary or what. I wanna be able to get high in the future but am scared of what's going on.
Now Im actually starting to get high.
But I can only stay high for a short amount of time. I was high for 2 days, now it comes and goes quickly. And is real real short lived. If I do to much I'll go sober, now it fades away quickly. It never did this not matter of the quality of product.
It would last me all day and until I went to sleep. Now I'm not even coming down, I just shift sober.
I did some one time got high and did some more and went sober instantly and my sciatic nerve in my thigh was affected, it made my leg feel numb like needles in it.
One time i was in kind of high, came down and cried. After i cried i went straight sober and felt real weird my ears started ringing and havent quit since.
Before that i did a hot rail and laid down and my ears rung and i felt numb in my head and it followed to my body. I also had a weird fumish feeling in my lungs
and brain.
One time i also could feel the nerve behind my calf. It didnt hurt i just felt it.
Now Im actually starting to get high.
But I can only stay high for a short amount of time. I was high for 2 days, now it comes and goes quickly. And is real real short lived. I've had progress on the duration. If I do to much I'll go sober, now it fades away quickly. It never did this not matter of the quality of product.
It would last me all day and until I went to sleep. Now I'm not even coming down, I just shift sober.
I also had a ache in my head behind my eye and my ears hurt a bit and one pupil of the eye was bigger than the other. I thought was aneurysm but had it checked and it wasnt.
And my eyes don't get anywhere near as big as they did before invega and I seem to be lacking the adrenaline/epinephrine.
It has been 5 months since my last invega shot.
I quit invega cold turkey.
Do u think It could be withdrawal syndrome? I seemed to have symptoms every time I used.
One day i would smoke a few hits kinda feel it then the next day take the same amount of hits of the same product and was higher than hell but i didn't feel alot of euphoria tho.
Please don't shrug this off and tell me I just need to quit meth, because I don't want to.
I work on my music high.
It helps.
I also have ADHD and live in a small town with nothing to do.
Is it possible for me to fuck myself up to where i could never get high again?
If so how do i prevent this and how long would it take.
Before the invega i never had any problems, i got the same high with the same amount and my body and brain processed it like water
Before the invega i never had any problems, i got the same high with the same amount and my body and brain processed it like water
It use to be there all the time now I can't binge at all.
Now when I go sober I get a cool feeling in my chest