My Nan is dieing and has been given about two weeks to live, I'm 19 and have never lost anyone particularly close before. I don't seem to be grieving much, not feeling much of any thing really, I occasionally, when I think about I get sad but mostly there is nothing. The only thing that has really changed is I really don't want to turn the lights off at night, is this normal? Is it OK to leave them on? It seems a bit childish and I am trying really hard to be a child in all of this. And it is going to go away right? Because I don't much fancy spending the rest of my nights with the lights, if nothing else it would be a massive waste of electricity