Respected expert,
Regarding these two stories plz tell me should I surrender to the police for the crime that I had done in the past. I think I was a frotteur before somewhat 8 yrs. At present I am 28.
Story 1
In the busy vehicle, one lady came to sit between my laps (because the vehicle was so packed). At that time I felt so much sexual pleasure. During my college life (before 8 yrs,) we had to get stand on the bus . At that time college girls of my same age around 19-20 come tight to me and I felt sexual pleasure all the time when they pressed their back parts near my genitals. Since then I liked to stand on the bus rather than sitting as I got such opportunity of getting sexual pleasure with out forcing them. The condition at that bus itself created the situation so that my genitals pressed against their back parts . Such habit discontinued in my life as I bought the bike. But still today I loved that memory. Regarding this am I a frotteur?

Story 2
I started masturbation followed by ejaculation only at the age of 18. But ejaculation was possible only when i rubbed penis over the bed wearing my normal cloth. From age 18- 19 and around 10 month, i used to ejaculate playing with my neice and other chidren permitting them to play on my laps( both children and me were wearing normal clothes). Then after i realised that this is bad and i stopped doing these things even though these children requested me to play with similar style . At that time i still remember that these children were very happy and i had done no harm with them. At present i am 27 years of old age, the childrens whom i used to masturbate have grown now, they all are perfectly healthy. I am 99.95% sure that they knew nothing about such incident. I respect the children . i want to save the children from such kind of abuse. But,When i hear about childsexabuse, i feel guilty about the act that i had done in the past. I swear i did not know that the act i was doing was a kind of abuse. plzzz give me advise that what should i do , how big crime have i done and what punishment should i get?#