So much to say k. Since I was at least four or five or a least old enough to know my feelings, everything with me was wrong. I was born a male with a twin Sister whom passed at birth according to what I was told. I have three Sister and never ever felt like I was me truly. I married whom I love still to this day that I honestly tried to say myself too. Together we had two beautiful children, one boy, one girl. I always took jobs or positions in life and tried to deny my true feelings to myself. For twenty six years I was a Police Officer and even a Fire fighter, paramedic and Emt. When I finally came to terms with myself so late in life, after thirty eight years of marriage, my wife couldn't , well ex now couldn't accept it. I understand, but it really doesn't help