hi...thanks for writing..i have understood your concerns.. no one will give you a prescription for the medication you want..that is not a way doctors work... consult a psychiatrist and ask for help..tell him all the details of your illness and the drugs prescribed to you, for how long you have taken the drugs? the drugs like valium and xanax are habit forming drugs and i feel u have became dependent on it..thats why other medications are not working..these benzodiazepines are not available as over the counter medication, so every doctor will take precaution while prescribing it.. you are taking effexor and trazodone..i feel you shud ask your treating psychiatrist for SSRI group of medication..particularly paroxetine, which is very effective in anxiety and panic.. you can also go for behavioral therapies as a part of psychotherapy and counselling... the best way to obtain a prescription is to consult a psychiatrist and ask for help..follow his advice and go for regular follow up..no body will give you the medications you want..they will prescribe, what is in best interest of you.. i hope this advice will be helpful to you..best luck..