I am 44 years old believe it or not I have a handicapped brother 15months older and a sister 4 years younger and a brother 9 years younger , I have always been the one who has to do or make sure everyone is ok but I feel like i am not im very negitive anymore, my thoughts are all over the place apparentley I talk way to fast go from one task to another without ever finishing the first even when I talk . My concern in the last year is i think alot about suicide more and more but have four children and they would think its all there fault but im to the point where i think they would be fine in a month or so ! i am a mess I asked them to just leave go to my moms and just wanna be alone alot lately I know people have it way worse than me but maybe they are stronger ! I have taken ADD meds for 10 years just do not seem to be helping my ups and downs though.