Suggest Treatment For OCD And PTSD From Early Sexual Encounters

When I was 11 or 12 I had a same sex encounter with my neighbor. This happened a few times but I got a point where this really bothered me. I knew it wasn t right and I was depressed for some time that I thought I was gay. I eventually told my mom and she got me help with a psychologist. That situation no longer bothered me and I lived 6 or so years as a straight man with no intrusive thoughts. Sophomore year I began to smoke weed. I loved the feeling of getting high and smoking weed with my friends. One night in December during my senior year I was smoking weed and the situation from when I was 12 came into my mind and was bothering me. In years past if that thought ever came into my mind I could easily shake it. But not this time, it nagged at me a little bit. Every time after that when I smoked the same thought would pop into my head. I began to question my sexuality and these thoughts began to really bother me when I was high. The thoughts then began to pop up into my sober mind and continued to bother me. I never stopped smoking though because I liked it to much. but the thoughts were worse when I was high rather than sober. About 5 months has passed and I m still having these bad intrusive thoughts. The thoughts began to get worse over time, I began suffering from filtering. I have stopped smoking for a month or so but I still have really bad instructive thoughts sober. I get anxiety attacks when I think about it too long. The thoughts happen Dailey and are beginning to distract me from my dailey routines in school and life and general. I go and see a psychologist too but that hasn t really helped. I was wondering if I m suffering from OCD? I never thought I had it before but I cannot shake these repetitive thoughts so I m not exactly sure. I m really struggling right now and I need some help, thank you and please let me know what you think.