I have this problem where im feeling like my life is slowly just making me not me. Im not myself, i feel like im trapped in my mind, like only part of me is getting through to the world and its making my social life a misery. People i love cant see the real me, i cant smile laugh and enjoy moments with my friends, i get anxious over anything... , i have moments where i would feel like im outside of myself, like im watching myself in 3rd person unable to change whats going on, like im sat watching a movie, expect its very uncomfortable, and my hearing goes less as i space out a little, i cant be myself unless say for example when im out drinking, i forget about my worries and i can be me, except then im a little too confident.