Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I don t see why you are depressed? you had so many negative experiences in your life. Means whole life you were suffering. You had seen almost all the sufferings of a human life. Others are yet to suffer. That means, in future, you may not have anything to suffer. Even though there is something, that should be lesser than what you had suffered. You should be happy. Let those people be anxious, who had not seen sufferings and expecting trouble in their future. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.