I am experiencing deep depression, I also have, PTSD. My husband died two years ago. Not sure why I bother to fight the symptoms of PTSD and missing my husband so much. I have not successfully rebuilt a life for myself. Without my husband there is no point. I can t stand this life anymore. Everyday is so hard. Flashbacks, thoughts from the pas, nightmares, headaches it s too much. I just need some peace. I just want to be with my husband.