i think i m either bipolar or depressed.
things have gotten real bad with my mum. my dad is harrassing me at the same time, this girl at school wont leave me alone, i have this assignment due and i was trying to move out because i seriously cannot live here anymore. but if i moved out it would disrupt my studies. i was trying to keep positive i guess, thinking that they would help me and i was kinda happy i guess. then today it only hit me that no one gave a #$% about me and there is no way anyone will help me move out. i just felt so trapped and helpless. i was trying to keep positive because i feared if i didnt then i would become suicidal. with the lack of options now.. well now i keep having thoughts that maybe the only way out is to die, but i try to avoid them because i dont want to really die. i also have a few thoughts of my mum dying or at least being taken away from the house so i can live there and not feel hurt anymore. (she is doing the cycle of violence currently all emotional, nothing physical).
so..i think i m bipolar