I ve been feeling depressed for about six months now, and it has recently gotten worse. I ve been feeling down, I ve been having suicidal thoughts, I ve been eating less, I ve lost interest in pretty much everything I ve ever enjoyed, A LOT less energy, I ve been feeling a lot of guilt and regret, I haven t been able to focus on anything lately, I ve been wanting to start cutting again, I haven t slept late for the past couple days and it is past 2am and I have not been able to sleep. I don t know what to do and I ve lost hope in everything. I don t want to do anything anymore. My question is, what do I do? I haven t been to a doctor for way over a year and I m afraid to go to one.